Always forgive your enemies, Nothing annoys them more.

"cinderella is sick of charming, sleeping beauty would rather nap,
ariels all washed up, & belles not coming back.
nothing last forever silly girl you must see.
stop searching for something that will never be."

so...today in small groups we talked about where and how our life is going. which brought something to my attention that i have been doing my best to avoid..I DON'T KNOW! i always heard about people who had to "find themselves" and i would make fun of them i mean come on you're right there, how can you find something that never actually left? but i really dont know anymore. i mean i may not know who i am yet but i know who i'm not. here lately i am starting to see everything different. mainly people. i have started seeing them for who they really are and not just who i wanted them to be. which caused me to make decisions that i really did not want to make. and i have to tell certain people things which is going to be extremly hard for me to do. i guess basically at this point in time i do not know where my life is headed, but i am ready for it.

we also talked about our reputations and how easy it is to ruin them. and honestly i have just gotten lucky that mine hasn't been ruined. i have made the same the mistakes over and over again, but that stops today. i am not going to let something small completely change the way people think about me. i also am not going to let who i hang out with determine my reputation either. so if changing my friends and everything i am used to is what it takes then i am willing to do it. i guess really its not completely about my reputation.its more of i want to feel like i am a good person. i mean i want my reputation to be good, but if you are going to call me a bad person or whatever for trying to do what i feel is right then i am ok with that. i am more concerned with my character than my reputation..because...my character is who i really am...my reputation is just what people think i am..

truth or dare?
truth. "tell me how you really feel."
dare."prove it."

anyway i still have this cold thing going on and it sucks.( life lesson- never drink after jamie mullins she will give you mono.) yesterday was fun! i love my friends and my family:) so my mom is annoying the mess out of me to come watch some movie about this 17 yr old who gets kidnapped in daylight or something. i dont know. but i am going to take my usa test prep thing because i have a busy day tomorrow and i know i will forget. i love you :)

je t'aime, te amo, te quiero, ik hou van jou, i love you. it doesn't matter how you say it. it matters how much you mean it.

Acts 20:24

²⁴ However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God's grace.

-emilybristenwarren-