"Nobody cares about the truth. All they care about is what they believe."
well..this week has been rather amazing. you know how you have those days where everything....i mean everything is funny? my whole week was like that. especially wednesday. when dakota threw his ice on the car i laughed so hard i couldn't stand up. "porkchop porkchop greasy greasy arab girls are easy easy"-our student section.
"I hope you know what you lost.
I hope you know what you had to
begin with. I hope you know what
mistake you made leaving; If you don't
then I hope you realize it. Most of all;
I hope you regret every single bit of it."
but for some reason today i was really discontent i guess you could say. it really wasn't a bad day. i just have been in a weird mood. and i cant concentrate on anything. if i said i didn't know why i would be lying. i know exactly why. but i still cannot accept my truth. i refuse to do it. i am the most confusing person ever. and you will see i will hardly ever write when i'm happy. i can't. maybe its more that i'm complicated. i can never ever ever make up my mind. i suck at making decisions. mainly big ones. and i am constantly forced to. we chose our class rings today. it makes me happy to know that i am that much closer to getting out of here. i want high school to be over. i dont want to be any older though. well that was contradicting. i don't want to wish my life away. its short and i want to enjoy every moment. i am just so over the stupidness of high school. today i realized: mrs. howard always makes me feel better. i am terrified of tanning beds. i love driving. i go way to fast though. i also realized today that my ideas get me into trouble alot. i should probably work on that, and the fact that i can be talked into anything. and that people seem to always end up doing exactly what they promised they would never do to you.
"Everyone knows that seasons change;
it's unavoidably obvious But for some
reason, everyone tries to avoid the
fact that people do too."
uhm..in church we are talking about relationships.....which is something that i have always had problems with. i could tell and absoulte stranger that i loved them, but when it comes to the people who mean the most to me i never show it. i used to think i have commitment problems but thats not it. i have problems allowing things to be perfect. woah....i know right? why in the world would i not want things to go perfect?? well i dont have that answer. but if everything is going just fine, i mess it up on purpose. i mean don't get me wrong. i want to be in that happy relationship...you know...the special love. like maybe if it snowed on your birthday, and your birthday was in july type thing. but i will not allow myself that happiness. maybe i should just not date anymore. i'll think about that and have to get back to you. this is entirely to long. i am stopping. sorry for my grammar.
"Nobody wants to hear this; but sometimes the person you want most is the person your better off without"
"And everyone knows what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
so while your trying to pull her down - your only making her last longer."
"We are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special in our lives. Going to familiar places given us that small twinge in our hearts and smile in our faces. It's simply bittersweet 'cause every time that person crosses our minds, we remember the instances when we were complete."
"I hope you know what you lost.
I hope you know what you had to
begin with. I hope you know what
mistake you made leaving; If you don't
then I hope you realize it. Most of all;
I hope you regret every single bit of it."
but for some reason today i was really discontent i guess you could say. it really wasn't a bad day. i just have been in a weird mood. and i cant concentrate on anything. if i said i didn't know why i would be lying. i know exactly why. but i still cannot accept my truth. i refuse to do it. i am the most confusing person ever. and you will see i will hardly ever write when i'm happy. i can't. maybe its more that i'm complicated. i can never ever ever make up my mind. i suck at making decisions. mainly big ones. and i am constantly forced to. we chose our class rings today. it makes me happy to know that i am that much closer to getting out of here. i want high school to be over. i dont want to be any older though. well that was contradicting. i don't want to wish my life away. its short and i want to enjoy every moment. i am just so over the stupidness of high school. today i realized: mrs. howard always makes me feel better. i am terrified of tanning beds. i love driving. i go way to fast though. i also realized today that my ideas get me into trouble alot. i should probably work on that, and the fact that i can be talked into anything. and that people seem to always end up doing exactly what they promised they would never do to you.
"Everyone knows that seasons change;
it's unavoidably obvious But for some
reason, everyone tries to avoid the
fact that people do too."
uhm..in church we are talking about relationships.....which is something that i have always had problems with. i could tell and absoulte stranger that i loved them, but when it comes to the people who mean the most to me i never show it. i used to think i have commitment problems but thats not it. i have problems allowing things to be perfect. woah....i know right? why in the world would i not want things to go perfect?? well i dont have that answer. but if everything is going just fine, i mess it up on purpose. i mean don't get me wrong. i want to be in that happy relationship...you know...the special love. like maybe if it snowed on your birthday, and your birthday was in july type thing. but i will not allow myself that happiness. maybe i should just not date anymore. i'll think about that and have to get back to you. this is entirely to long. i am stopping. sorry for my grammar.
"Nobody wants to hear this; but sometimes the person you want most is the person your better off without"
"And everyone knows what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
so while your trying to pull her down - your only making her last longer."
Romans 8:38-39
38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.-emilybristenwarren-
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