old enough to know better, too young to care.

i'm 16.
i def. don't feel 16.
i have waited and waited and waited for this day.
not to be able to drive all by myself. not to get a car. not get a job or find freedom.
no, it wasnt anything like that.

"Sometimes the things you complain about most are the things you care about most. Unfortunately, you don’t always know that before it’s too late."

we had our anomaly reunion last night.
it was fun:) my gah it brought back so many memories.
and i realized just how much everything has changed since March.
and just how much i have changed since then.
and how just one ONE little thing can change your life completely.
and i wonder if i had just done one thing different how different my life would be.
i'm not talking about just one specific event. i mean something small and irrelevant.
like...if i had not had 2nd period PE last year. or if i had missed that one sunday, if kristins car wouldnt have broken down in december, if i would of left my cell phone charger at home, if my mom had never read my text messages, if i would of went to Zoolight Safari, if i would of just left that myspace message unread......i wonder....wonder if i would even be the same person.

"On the topic of the time we spent together, I can’t say I never wonder if you ever think about those days ..."

but i am glad that every one of those things did happen the way they did.
i beleive that i am who i'm supposed to be.
and even though i got hurt along the way, i learned so much.
compared to who and what i would fall for 6 months ago you would thing i had grown 5 years...not half of one.

It's almost like you had it planned
It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said
"Hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time"

i think, i think to much.

"Dear friends, if God loved us that much we also should love each other."

-- 1 John 4:11 <3>

-emilybristenwarren-